tumblr is the most hauntological social platform by FAR
quiet, empty things. black bedsheets up flagpoles. navelgazing forum kids in the time domain: becomings, not beings. "normal woman." (Brynn. 20s. t4t. gender-inscrutable, gender-unreal. sometimes-poet. RF electronics bitcher-atter.)
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Oh, also, the girl that started this blog x years ago definitely looked nothing like this—
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I haven’t logged into this site in a bit less than two years, feels more like decades. Feels almost like a completely different person used this account. Or no, I mean, it doesn’t just feel that way, it’s really true I think.
I’m going through our old posts and reblogs and deleting 99% of ‘em. Same of our follows. The 'me’ that followed all these 500 MLP artists and ask blogs (all inactive for years, now, of course) definitely isn’t 'me,’ the girl writing this. But “I am large, I contain multitudes"—like Whitman said.
Photos of someone I love, a strange girl and strange friend.
Hannah (8::1); Hannah (5::4).
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@ailuroh liked my pre-dance dress pic, making me realize I never posted any from the actual night of - so here!
I’m still trying to figure out how smiles work I guess, also my phone camera is bunk and I didn’t have a lens on the schmancy SLR I brought that would focus close enough -
top is “before” (6 months ago, a while before I really knew I was trans); bottom is “after,” taken this morning before I showered or anything
I guess this is what it’s like to actually like your appearance, even if only somewhat
somewhen around 6 months ago I decided to get serious about making my body image match my actual body, and I started by losing weight - since then I’ve lost around 30lbs/14kg, bringing my weight down to ~200lb/91kg. I still have a ways to go, but I already look waaaaay thinner, and I have lots more energy than I’ve had in a long, long time
then about two or three months ago I fully realized that I’m a queer-ass transgirl and want/need to transition, and decided I would grow my hair out and make myself look more “girly”; after obtaining a decent manual razor, using chapstick every day (woo nice pink lips), and letting my hair grow out (turns out it’s naturally wavy!), I’m finally starting to feel good about my face
you can’t tell very well, but I’m smiling a little in the second pic
so yeah. even if I can’t really transition yet, I can at least do some things to make myself feel more comfortable in my body until I can get the main ball rolling in a year or two
<3
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I feel like much of the world is in a social war over what gender is and is not.
I don’t feel that its my place to tell someone else what gender is.
I believe that gender identity is something that an individual has to figure out for themselves. The being said, based on my personal experience with understanding my own gender identity, I can tell you what gender is not.Gender is not the same as your sexuality.
Gender does not have to define your sexuality.
Gender and sexuality are two different subjects.Gender has nothing to do with your genitalia.
Gender is not defined by a doctor, despite what’s on your birth certificate.
Gender identity is more of spectrum of variable options, instead of a binary with only two options.Gender Identity & Gender Expression are not the same thing.
Gender identity is part of the mental and emotional understanding of yourself.
Gender expression is your style, how you’re most comfortable presenting to the outside world.It is my belief that somewhere through out history, things like gender identity, gender expression, genitalia & sexuality somehow got all wrapped up into one single category called gender. However, it is also my belief that the people in this world are changing. Growing into a much more colorful way of thinking and understanding.
I hope the day will come when the majority will know gender to be a personal understanding of ones self, instead of an outward understanding of everyone else.
Xoxo
-Elliott Alexzander“I don’t feel that its my place to tell someone else what gender is.”
frame this quote and stick it everywhere on tumblr and in the entire world
(via dragon-bunz)
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like trust me, 13/14/15 year old follwers i have
you are in a weird time of your life right now,
when you are 19/20/21 you’re going to look at yourself and just go “what the fuck”
and thats ok
I just want to warn you though.
(via ufuckingpastry)
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I bought a 25ohm rheostat and two 50ohm, 10W resistors from RadioShack today.
ALL IS ACCORDING TO PLAN
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